So the England National team has played out another Euro 2012 qualifier and I find myself asking two simple questions. The first is as follows -
“Why was I not feeling in the slightest bit tense about this England game before hand, why do I not feel tense before any England game for that matter??”
If this was a Liverpool game, no matter which competition domestic or European, I would be feeling that churning in the stomach, call it what you will, nerves, tension, apprehension, excitement maybe? I would even go so far as to say dread or fear if the team has been under performing (not looking at anyone in particular......Roy my boy) . But label this feeling inside however I must, I feel something God damn it!
Is it simply because my club team Liverpool play much more regularly than my national team England, is that the reason for my emotional difference. I love Liverpool, I watch them weekly and in the off season follow transfers and club business closely, is this why? Is it because of this constant weekly fix that I have the feelings that I have for Liverpool, a drug for sure, my drug.
Do I feel numb for England because they have a group of players who ply their club trade with direct rivals of Liverpool and therefore I associate them with the way I think of that individual as they are for Manchester United, Arsenal, City, Spurs or Chelsea??? Perhaps, but I am still English, still an Englishman. Can I be that pathetic, that childish? Is there something wrong with me?
Maybe the country as a whole has lost some passion some pride and to a degree some identity, maybe the 3 Lions on the shirt or the St George Cross have been diluted through a couple of decades or poorly managed and badly judged politic?
All I know is that when Liverpool play the result will shape my mood, if they win I get my wonderful drug and everything in life is just that little bit sweeter, however if they lose, it is not unknown for me to lose sleep...certainly put me in a dark and sinister place for a good few days (Bless my family, it must be an emotional minefield for them every single football season, lets not even mention the Hicks and Gillett reign, what must my wife have being going through with me then, poor bastard!!!)
I love England, I long to see the team perform and challenge for a Euro or World Cup, I guess I still get a little worked up in them bigger games, but if I am honest, it doesn't come close to what I feel for Liverpool.
My second question very simple and aimed to all football fans...
Does anybody else feel the same???
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